LETAK

Terkadang kau fikir
dengan menempatkan orang lain di kasut kau,
gerak tari kau dan dia akan seiring irama dan lagu.
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Tapi kau lupa, saiz kakimu dan dia berbeza, dia mula tidak selesa.
Lantas gerakan bercelaru, kalian keliru.
Kau sendiri termangu mangu akan dia yang di depanmu.
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Dan kau lupa, gerakan yang tidak senada itu bakal menghancurkan.
Kasutmu mengkhianat.
Orang lain yang di depanmu sudah penat.
Kasutmu dibuka lalu dicampak jauh dari kalian.
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Nah, adakah kau masih tidak perasan?

NZ
170918

Human and machine

Dark clouds bring us tears and flood
On this point, where i stood
They
create walls and bridges
between me and my sisters.

We are separated 
on a land that we thought to be fertile
but is barren due to oversupply
of water that we cry, of the tear from the sky.

The sky feels sad, you make him mad,
when your plan to ease yourself
with machine, Lego and robots,
you destroy others' lungs, heart and throat.
the easiness turns madness.
And now.
Let me ask in tears,
If roses are reds, and violets are blue,
for the world to be great, what will you do?

Nisa Zainodin
310318

'taken for granted'

Sometimes somehow, we tend to take for granted what we've achieved till now.
We tend to ignore every single nikmat been given to us.We tend to deny everyone and everything that lingers around us only to worry about issues that are out of our control..

Those issues might differ in each individuals; depend on what's ahead or what's still left behind. 

But this time, i wanna focus on life companion (orang Melayu says: jodoh)..This one is the biggest bestest SECRET from Allah that keeps us in curiosity. Of who'll the person be, where to meet and when is the right time. Thus, out of curiosity, in most cases, we do trial-and-error..try to befriend, try to get to know each other, in fact, try to develop mutual love feeling. In the end, we meet a dead end. 💔💔💔.

But wait. 

It's trial and error, remember? Coz we have no idea of whose name is written for us. We can't beat Allah's plans, can we? Not every relationship is meant to work, sometimes it exists so that we learn a lesson. Improve us as person. Only one relationship will last; with Allah. 

Thus, don't be a cat who is killed by curiosity. Be a wise-man, strong-lady, and optimist person who is not affected by the past to step forward and move on. Be a strong-man, wise-lady who is not surrounded by a feeling of guilt with the past to build a new life. 

Have faith, Allah has prepared someone better for you, for him and her. Someone who is the best. (seriously?) yeah..trust me. i write what i see, listen and experience. 

Make du'a coz you (we) don't have the power to do that heart and mind control of others but He. Have faith..

There was once, a sister told me this: "There's so much more in this life than the fixation of love between opposite sexes. "Indeed. So much more. And if you really hadam this phrase, Subhanallah, you'll be content with what surrounds you. Dan paling penting, redha, sabar dan syukur.

May Allah bless.

'that girl'

That girl is a real crowd pleaser
Small world, all her friends know of me
Young bull living like an old geezer
Quick release the cash, watch it fall slowly
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That's how Black Beatles put it.
And you, 'that girl' you hate is not a girl anymore. You've lost the track she was following.

she's a lady, knowing what is her priority.
she's a lady, doing her responsibility.
she's a lady now. That's how i see her.

And you, she wanted peace, you gave her peaceful attack instead.
she asked 'Can we be friend?'
you answered with ignorance, not even a helping hand.
'Is that how 'girl' reacts?' she asked in guilt.

And you, still see her as a girl huh?
You may borrow her diary, and learn 'Life as a Lady' topic in it.
she has gone through, what you're being through.
an ocean of tears was wasted yet a new version of her was created

Be a lady, my friend. i know you will someday. The matter is, when.

NZ | 060117

note:
i pray to Allah that someday we will go through this difficult times with easiness. i pray that Allah will guide us and save us from this heartache that is worse than heart-attack. i am truly sorry to interrupt your love story. forgive me. that is all i ask. i am no one but a little servant who needs Him forever. how about you?

expect less

Hoping the world to be good to you,
it's a bizarre imagination,
too far from the expectation
the least expectation a human can make. 

The world can be kind
and somehow it shows the unkind.

The true colors that teach you; ocean will not always blue.
indeed the blue color you see is borrowed from the sky.

That's why,
you. must always be you.
For people won't mistake you to be someone else. 
Someone they expect to fulfill their wishes, needs, hopes and desires.

NZ | 070116

perfect, you're?

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again (right again)
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand (you don't understand)

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

-I remembered singing this song again and again back in 2004, with my year 6 classmates. And this song is just perfect!

18:46

Wealth and children are [but] adornment of the worldly life. 
But the enduring good deeds are better to your Lord 
for reward and better for [one's] hope.