'that girl'

That girl is a real crowd pleaser
Small world, all her friends know of me
Young bull living like an old geezer
Quick release the cash, watch it fall slowly
.
.
That's how Black Beatles put it.
And you, 'that girl' you hate is not a girl anymore. You've lost the track she was following.

she's a lady, knowing what is her priority.
she's a lady, doing her responsibility.
she's a lady now. That's how i see her.

And you, she wanted peace, you gave her peaceful attack instead.
she asked 'Can we be friend?'
you answered with ignorance, not even a helping hand.
'Is that how 'girl' reacts?' she asked in guilt.

And you, still see her as a girl huh?
You may borrow her diary, and learn 'Life as a Lady' topic in it.
she has gone through, what you're being through.
an ocean of tears was wasted yet a new version of her was created

Be a lady, my friend. i know you will someday. The matter is, when.

NZ | 060117

note:
i pray to Allah that someday we will go through this difficult times with easiness. i pray that Allah will guide us and save us from this heartache that is worse than heart-attack. i am truly sorry to interrupt your love story. forgive me. that is all i ask. i am no one but a little servant who needs Him forever. how about you?

expect less

Hoping the world to be good to you,
it's a bizarre imagination,
too far from the expectation
the least expectation a human can make. 

The world can be kind
and somehow it shows the unkind.

The true colors that teach you; ocean will not always blue.
indeed the blue color you see is borrowed from the sky.

That's why,
you. must always be you.
For people won't mistake you to be someone else. 
Someone they expect to fulfill their wishes, needs, hopes and desires.

NZ | 070116

perfect, you're?

Hey dad look at me

Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just wanna make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again (right again)
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand (you don't understand)

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

-I remembered singing this song again and again back in 2004, with my year 6 classmates. And this song is just perfect!

18:46

Wealth and children are [but] adornment of the worldly life. 
But the enduring good deeds are better to your Lord 
for reward and better for [one's] hope.

Sabr

The thing is
when i take the ring,
the needs to think twice or thrice,
to almost everything i'm doing.
is everything.

now i'm rich,
with gold, smiles and words you preach.
there you stay,
with a promise, 'to trust anyway'.
                         
                  remember,

                  when you pass me the ring,

                  you need to think twice or thrice,

                  to almost everything you're doing.

                  now you're a keeper,

                  don't be the player.

                  here i'm attached to a promise,

                  but why is she the one you miss?

then i realize,

promises are meant to be forgotten.

heart is meant to be broken.

if the heart isn't attached to the Deen and what He has spoken,

sure there's aversion.

so i lift the trust, faith and patience.

for all that have happened.

have you no compassion?

NZ | 210916

#3

The only way to keep sane in this crazy world is to keep going.

#2

when we put something in our heart,
that's why,
when we lose it
we feel hurt so much.

Yasmin Mogahed
-Reclaim your heart-