The Day You Called It A Day

The day you called it a day.

It was a brilliant day,
The day i could possibly regain my strength
Cause it's already to that length; my busy days,
Cause i already cried a bank; since LDR is there.

On that brilliant day,
then i saw you were asking,
for questions from those and who is following,
i asked too, not to ignore you
intended to motivate you, your morning
then came another one or two, more curiosity upon you.
It came out; somebody is a better motivator.
i hope it 'was'

The day you called it a day,
you answered mine; like i'm the stranger.
They could tell by the words.
That somebody was replied too,
surprisingly; sweet and effortlessly,
we could sense it.
you tell me it's neither him or her; then what could it be?

It was the day you admitted you 'miss' ___,
While the world around you and ___ went sparkling,
The spark in our relation gone missing,
Our ship is sinking; many people around but no one could save me from the sinking ship, because it's ours.
i was suffocating, and everyone could see i was already dying but you.

While you remained calm in the striking wave,
___ knew ___ won the ghost battle.
It was the day you called ours a day,
the moment you said 'you miss ___'
i waited and built myself alone so long,
till finally i got the answer, that the one you missed is her.


NZ | 742020

A year of silence

While completing my school task, i suddenly remembered my one and only blog that i've left for a year. 

No post at all in 2019! I WONDER WHYYYY? Too busy with life i guess? 😣

So that i'm back now, i would like to list out all things that had happened and had been done by me personally, and by people around me throughout 2019!
B I S M I L L A H....

JANUARY
Fayyadh's 1st birthday, i baked a simple fresh fruitcake on my own! A major success coz it's actually simple. i used to think that it was super complicated to bake it looking at all the fruits being topped on the cream. Plus, it's quite priceeeyyyy

FEBRUARY
My first all-girls trip after i got married! Except for Ahmad Fayyadh lah, he was the only boy who followed us, my highschool girlfriends to Penang. It is indeed a lovely place to be spent again and again..

MARCH
Malacca Trip with in-laws to celebrate my father and brother in law's birthday. Double event. Ouh, actually it was triple coz my biras decided to let me and husband celebrate our 2nd anniversary as well. Hence, the cake got all 3 events written on it.

We went to Kuching, attending my Baiti wedding. Si Betot!

Then, it was the month we stepped into our own first house =) alhamdulillah, everything was totally His Blessings..

JUNE
My brother got married!!!

My school English panel first drama team -- Avant-Garde passed the first round of the Petronas Science Drama Competition (PSDC) 2019 and succeeded to go to the FINAL round in Putrajaya!

SEPTEMBER
The scariest month of all, especially for Year 6 teachers. The one and only UPSR😆😆😆
Alhamdulillah all my 32 pupils passed both English papers (Pemahaman and Penulisan) and 2 of them got A's..

My lovely husband birthday! We went to Penang (again, for me) as his birthday gift. (It was actually me--who really wants to go for a trip, after the hectic weeks and weekends before UPSR)

NOVEMBER
My first FUN RUN! with Mr. Phaez!
5km jerrrr not more than that..yet? Maybe this year i'll try 10km? phewwww

DECEMBER
Holi - holi - yaayyyy!!
i think, this time i spent my December holiday (while being an English teacher and a wife and a mom and a sister) much much better and wayyyy nicer than previous year.

1st, coz i have my husband here with me. Last December holiday (2018), he was away in Langkawi. So most of the time i'll stay home (mom's place), nothing much to do, nowhere else to go..like what Malay says, krikkk krikkk..

2nd, Fayyadh has grown up so he's up to more challenges like, accompanying me shopping 😜

3rd, i planned my December before the holiday started. So i got 2 English home-tuition classes each week. So it's kinda help me not to forget how to teach and how to apply the grammar tips laa.. alhamdulillah for that. i study too while teaching others.


So, that's basically how my 2019 went.
i will try my best to write more in 2020 coz i love this year..2020

i'm hoping that 2020 will be a year of my excellence, in everything i do. Aminnn

LETAK

Terkadang kau fikir
dengan menempatkan orang lain di kasut kau,
gerak tari kau dan dia akan seiring irama dan lagu.
.
Tapi kau lupa, saiz kakimu dan dia berbeza, dia mula tidak selesa.
Lantas gerakan bercelaru, kalian keliru.
Kau sendiri termangu mangu akan dia yang di depanmu.
.
Dan kau lupa, gerakan yang tidak senada itu bakal menghancurkan.
Kasutmu mengkhianat.
Orang lain yang di depanmu sudah penat.
Kasutmu dibuka lalu dicampak jauh dari kalian.
.
Nah, adakah kau masih tidak perasan?

NZ
170918

Human and machine

Dark clouds bring us tears and flood
On this point, where i stood
They
create walls and bridges
between me and my sisters.

We are separated 
on a land that we thought to be fertile
but is barren due to oversupply
of water that we cry, of the tear from the sky.

The sky feels sad, you make him mad,
when your plan to ease yourself
with machine, Lego and robots,
you destroy others' lungs, heart and throat.
the easiness turns madness.
And now.
Let me ask in tears,
If roses are reds, and violets are blue,
for the world to be great, what will you do?

Nisa Zainodin
310318

'taken for granted'

Sometimes somehow, we tend to take for granted what we've achieved till now.
We tend to ignore every single nikmat been given to us.We tend to deny everyone and everything that lingers around us only to worry about issues that are out of our control..

Those issues might differ in each individuals; depend on what's ahead or what's still left behind. 

But this time, i wanna focus on life companion (orang Melayu says: jodoh)..This one is the biggest bestest SECRET from Allah that keeps us in curiosity. Of who'll the person be, where to meet and when is the right time. Thus, out of curiosity, in most cases, we do trial-and-error..try to befriend, try to get to know each other, in fact, try to develop mutual love feeling. In the end, we meet a dead end. 💔💔💔.

But wait. 

It's trial and error, remember? Coz we have no idea of whose name is written for us. We can't beat Allah's plans, can we? Not every relationship is meant to work, sometimes it exists so that we learn a lesson. Improve us as person. Only one relationship will last; with Allah. 

Thus, don't be a cat who is killed by curiosity. Be a wise-man, strong-lady, and optimist person who is not affected by the past to step forward and move on. Be a strong-man, wise-lady who is not surrounded by a feeling of guilt with the past to build a new life. 

Have faith, Allah has prepared someone better for you, for him and her. Someone who is the best. (seriously?) yeah..trust me. i write what i see, listen and experience. 

Make du'a coz you (we) don't have the power to do that heart and mind control of others but He. Have faith..

There was once, a sister told me this: "There's so much more in this life than the fixation of love between opposite sexes. "Indeed. So much more. And if you really hadam this phrase, Subhanallah, you'll be content with what surrounds you. Dan paling penting, redha, sabar dan syukur.

May Allah bless.

'that girl'

That girl is a real crowd pleaser
Small world, all her friends know of me
Young bull living like an old geezer
Quick release the cash, watch it fall slowly
.
.
That's how Black Beatles put it.
And you, 'that girl' you hate is not a girl anymore. You've lost the track she was following.

she's a lady, knowing what is her priority.
she's a lady, doing her responsibility.
she's a lady now. That's how i see her.

And you, she wanted peace, you gave her peaceful attack instead.
she asked 'Can we be friend?'
you answered with ignorance, not even a helping hand.
'Is that how 'girl' reacts?' she asked in guilt.

And you, still see her as a girl huh?
You may borrow her diary, and learn 'Life as a Lady' topic in it.
she has gone through, what you're being through.
an ocean of tears was wasted yet a new version of her was created

Be a lady, my friend. i know you will someday. The matter is, when.

NZ | 060117

note:
i pray to Allah that someday we will go through this difficult times with easiness. i pray that Allah will guide us and save us from this heartache that is worse than heart-attack. i am truly sorry to interrupt your love story. forgive me. that is all i ask. i am no one but a little servant who needs Him forever. how about you?

expect less

Hoping the world to be good to you,
it's a bizarre imagination,
too far from the expectation
the least expectation a human can make. 

The world can be kind
and somehow it shows the unkind.

The true colors that teach you; ocean will not always blue.
indeed the blue color you see is borrowed from the sky.

That's why,
you. must always be you.
For people won't mistake you to be someone else. 
Someone they expect to fulfill their wishes, needs, hopes and desires.

NZ | 070116